Monday, July 27, 2009

Ok,today is another day.Started normal.But i went more negative after i left school.
Shit,is it me or i'm becoming more of an emo?Man....
But in anyways,after my bath just now,i've just realize something.
No use,totally no use.No use being upset.No use being unhappy.No use having a sulky face that spoils the day of people around me.No use being sad to the point of feeling like crying(but of course you know i can't cry at all).No use being so fucked up.
This,isn't a bad thing at all.To me,this is an answer.Something i wanted to find.And this,is like a answer to the problem that is stuck in my head for the past few days.
And a solution came.I've decided.I don't want to care.I wanna be the Daryl people know of.The Daryl that is always smilin'.The Daryl who is so hyper.The Daryl that has neverending happy energy.Impossible to be always that,i'll keep that.That smile,for the people around me.
So yes,hopefully,i don't go all emo again.Stupid melancholy.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Good evening guys~~~ It's been like um,how long since i've blogged? I wonder.
Dead for quite some time eh? Sorry ya?

Bah,first thing first.This blogger thing... Changed that layout thing,don't know how to post pics T_T
SO silly...Aww well,ask Ah Man tomorrow i guess.I prefer the old one.I think can change back to the old one...Hopefully it does.

Bah,these days,it seems,i've suddenly lost the interest in alot of things.Things that i've once so interested in the past.As in,for example,even now,i don't feel so like listening to music.Any upbeat musics that perks me up well.Ok,i admit,i'm feeling down.
As to why,well,i'm not really comfortable to say it here.Gah...In anyways,i'm an idiot.Always the idiot who makes the wrong choice,the wrong move,and regrets in the end.It's man to err,true.But i hate it,i hate regretting.Hate looking forward to something only to regret it.
Things like this,isn't the first time.And still,it happens.And the same results,regrets.
Guess that's the reason i'm pretty fucked up these days.Emotionally or otherwise.Not in mood,you could say.

Oh ya,i was working yesterday.So being tired,,even before working,i wasn't in,you could say, working-mood.And yes,there's this customer(s ,since it's a couple) was looking at the things.So they stared long enough.And i approached them,offering my service to them (well,a must for sales staff,right?).Guess what? They give me some snobbish attitude.I freaking hate them.Idiots.Like hell i would even want to approach them if i wasn't working.Idiotic fucks.

In anyways,i just feel terrible these days.Down,damn bloody down.I wasn't even myself now huh? Or am i too being myself? Actually,i don't really care in anyways.It doesn't matter now.

Ah,even the wonder food,ice cream doesn't work on me now huh? ............