Ah,after a bath.
Felt rather refreshed.
Mmmm.
Today,2 of them went to school.
The other two?
Didn't came.

When asked,
one replied "i didn't mean to do it"
and it seems nothing more was pursued.
While the other acted as if nothing happened.
I was really saddened about it.
Out of the four people and the the three 'buddies',
only one apologised.
It's really saddening.


But aww well,
i'm all better now.
After watching some parts of SAW.
I'm feeling better now.
Here's one of the part.

Ok,seriously,viewer descretion is advised.
I don't want you guys to suddenly be unable to take it and then puke and stuff.
Anyway this part is that,
the guy eventually gets killed by needles pumping Hydrofluoric Acid into his body.
It's kind of a scary way to die,if you ask me.
Well,but if you want to see the action,just skip to 6:11,where the needles falls down and....
you get the picture.

But seriously,
when i watch such things,i don't shudder like most of you guys.
If i were to,it's not that i am scared or anything like that (since i've been watch such kind of gore at a very young age),instead it would be that to see them suffer,it's kind of sad for them.
But then,just now,and even now,as i watch,
i don't feel sad anymore.
It seems,the 'empathy' is now gone.
Yea,high time i should let go of my 'empathy' towards others.
Always making me end up as the sad one,just because i 'put others in front of myself'.

Yea,no more of shielding others from being scolded.
No more of helping others in coming up with ideas.
No more of smiling to others so that they will feel motivated to smile.
Yes,i should be someone who lives for himself,like everyone.
This is a selfish world,sadly.

But how much i try,
i just can't do it.
I am really useless,yes?
Even being selfish seems so difficult to me.
What should i do?
Seriously.