And....

Hey guys.
Time flies doesn't it?
I don't know but,to me,time really flies.
So much,that i have realised,i haven't have much time left.
Life's gonna be busy.
Very busy.

But,after all this episodes.
I realised alot of things.
You could say,i have matured from this,i hope.
Now after all this,i have decided,or realised what i want.
What i want,how i want,and what i need to do.

I realised,all the while,i have been trying to do something.
Without really realising what i want and all.
And also,why i want.
But now that i know.

I realised,i have always been scared of making decisions.
Perhaps,that's why i have always been so immature.
Or rather,the other way round.
I always wanted things to not change.
So i tried to make things stay how it is,trying not to touch it.
But eventually,things will change.Everything will.
But i fail to realise,present is future's past.
The more i try to turn things back to the past,i didn't actually enjoy the present.

And also,i know what i want now.
I realised that the someone that is so important to me,is all the while in front of me.
That,i have always been neglecting her.
Now that i realised,everything that i wished for,actually revolves around her.
Thus,instead using the 'effort' to find that 'some other people',i'd rather put that and spend that on this someone special.
I can't live my life under influences of others,so afraid of what they think and all.
I know,i will never be happy this way.

So,from now on,i want to be the man who will my own decision.
And...