Awakened,perhaps?

Hey guys.
It's been quite some time since i've blogged here eh?
It seems as if i had killed this blog or something.

Well,the past days,or rather,month....It has changed me quite a bit.
It made me realised alot of things,what i have and what i used to have.
That i used to have things that people envy.
That i have taken them for granted.
That i have lost them.
That i have regret losing them.
And finally,that "Past is a scenery that we can never return to".

After all this,it isn't bad at all.
Trying to hard to bring everything back,might even cause the adverse to happen.
I always repeat such phrases but yet not realising it happening all the while.
It moving away...It's like trying to catch a fish in the water.
The more you try to,the more it slips away,moving further and further from you.
Solutions? Try not to grab it,let it come to you?
Hahaha~

Anyways,i think,i should just learn how to let go.
Refusing to change doesn't mean everything will stop its pace with you.
I have to realised that...
Even how much i try not to change,people will change.
Even if i don't change,they will.
Those feelings,they will change.They will never stay the same.
I failed to realise,everyone is but a human afterall.

And you know,after all this,i realised.
Somewhere inside,i've changed gradually.That i have become more mature in a sense.
That i have realised so many things.
That i have learnt try to appreciate and treasure everything that i hold dear,for they will never last.
But as much as that,that childish side of me still remains.That childish me who wish to go back to the past.
But you know,we can never go back to the past,right?
I have to agree to that though i never want to.

Maybe i'm too sentimental,maybe i'm just too useless.
True,i find these feelings lacking in succesful people i have met.
Perhaps,i'm never gonna be successful in the future?
Haha~

But then again,perhaps,this is not that bad.
This is already good enough i guess.
I really have to appreciate what i have now and make the best out of it.
Hard,but i'll just have to try,right?

Maybe all this,is to harden me,to make me a better person in life.
You think?