A lifetime, and putting it down.

Before i start anything, Try listening to this song.

Crying Rain - Girugamesh

Heard of this in Riven's 3 choice of songs to sing for upcoming event.

The more i listen to this, the more i like this song.

Erisa told me my voice 'resembles' the lead vocalist of this band.

Gee, i can't even reach his notes.

Man....

Anyways, after a chat with mom, i realised, some dreams can never come true.

Not for this lifetime, not for this lifetime i'm living now.

And yes, one of them is having a career as a singer, and nothing else.

Not in here, not now.

Why? I don't have the money, and my family don't have the resources to support me.

You see, sadly, we are the people who can't afford to chase their dreams.

We can't do alot of things which others can afford to do.

It's pretty sad to say such stuff, but it's how reality works.

Not in here, where things like 'Creative movements' or 'we support creativity' are said or done, yet the society just prefers whatever that earns more money in the end, rendering the earlier things mentioned mere bullcrap.

But having said those things, i don't plan to give up, or throw my dreams away.

I'll let it be my sideline. And take intelligent opportunism.

Like hell i will give up singing.

Not unless i have to choose between something else more important than it.

And and...

Last night, i had a chat with Geok Theng.

Guess it's quite sometime since i really chatted with her.

You could say, i kinda enjoyed that, somehow.

And come to think of it, i have no reasons to hate her now.

I lost those reasons.

To be honest, i don't even feel the intense feeling i felt back then.

Maybe i was still thinking immaturely about it back then?

You could really say that i had already put those feelings down.

It's really meaningless to hold onto such things.

Besides, if you can't put it down, how are you able to take up another?

Anyways~

I think i have a mix to be confirmed =/