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..........Do you believe,if i say,i'm pretty depressed?
Why?You asked.Then,i will answer you with another question.
If the people who you thought would respect your decision the most now doubt and not understand what you are doing now,how would you feel? ......Sad,right?
To a certain extend,i feel useless.I feel,i'm not good enough for anything,or in some case,anyone....A useless bum that's going to end up like someone he detest the most in the whole damn world...You think?
But then it's alright...Guess no one have to understand or believe in what i am doing.As long as i get my job done,get my s**t cleaned up,it's alright,ya?
So,now i don't feel as bad as just now,coz' i realised,people can't always understand you,especially when it concerns their interest on the bad side.Because,more than often or not,humans are selfish.Even i myself am selfish,i admitt.No one's a saint here.
So it's alright,really,sinking myself in depressing songs,my way of drowning my sorrows?
But guess and hope that,after a good night sleep,everything will go back to normal,then i will be laughing,goofing like an idiot,so as to cheer everyone around me up?But it seems,they are forever unhappy about the state they are in now,and the fact that my inability to cheer them up,could perhaps be the reason as to why i am feeling depressed?All i wanted,is just to see everyone being happy,truly happy.Seems like this is so f**king impossible.Especially in a time like this,isn't it?
Ok,maybe at times,i seems to not care about almost everything,but then the problem is,not everything is what it seems.

Hey all~
Ah,so long no post le,got miss me?I know you guys do XD
Ah,so,today's nice.Fun,and aw so sweeet~,coz' you know why?
I've got my new dolls.And kinda can say,her birthday(as in,the day you remove the girl from her box)
So,it started,when i went to Dollz inc. at Wheelocks this noon(or evening,if that's how you put around 5 pm).So,choosing between two Blythe dolls,Can Can Cat and Bow Wow Trad.I took like very long to decide(nearly an hour just on deciding the doll).I took Can Can instead.
Well,maybe i'm on the side of collectors whereby 'you don't keep things the way it is,you customise' type,i took of every accessories from the girl,bought some punk punk clothings and put it on her.Well,so,from a Can Can Dancer into a Punk,quite a big change,huh?Cool,isn't it?
Then,i took lots of pics the moment i remove her from the box.
So ya,here are some of the pics,
When she's still in her box....

And when she's out and in her actual costume....

And finally,after her customization,nice? XD

And oh yes,i've named her Kathy.Well,why Kathy?Coz' she kinda' reminds me of someone i know,and after all,she's Can Can Cat (see the connection there?),so ya,there you have it.
Ok then,i think i'll gotta' do more editing and stuff.
So,Cyas&Buh bye~ Cheers~

Hey ya all~
Ah,Ah Xian's server's not up yet for today.Maybe a lil' while more then.

Nowadays,i think my body's telling me that i shouldn't pig out like how i used to.It seems,my body is getting different.As in,getting sicker?Haiz.....
But whatever lah,as long as i enjoy myself,it should be fine.I mean,the main thing is 'not to regret,what life throws at you'.You know what i mean?Ahahahaz.

Gah ah,oh ya,i didn't manage to put up my new year resolution.But would it be fine?As in,this is the 5th day of the month le.Man....Like i care.
So,New Year Resolution for 2009 is:
-Work hard,Play even harder
-getting used to new environment faster
-Be more ok (in every sense)
-Able to do what i've always wish doing
-Customise a new blythe doll by myself
And more.So many i don't know how to list
Guess it's human to want so many things huh?But will it happen,i'm not sure.But what i'm sure of is that,i will try make it happen.That's me,youcan't change it whether you like it or not.

Guess i rarely touch this blog nowadays huh?Seems like this blog's pretty dead,ya?
Well,it's not hard to imagine why.Being a full-time maid,this and that.Now you know why.Hahahaz.

Ok lah,guess it's time for work now.Drop by sometime else.
Buh bye...

Hey all~
Ah,past week's a blast.Know what i mean? Everything went well,all's fun.

Mmmm,On Monday.We went out for Yuki Yaki at Marina Square.
Everyone: Ray,Ah Xian,Ah Yao and his bro,Ah Thien,my sis and myself.
So,we first went to Bugis for the arcade.It seems like most of the previous outings we were also there =_= Well,after all,the arcade there rocks *_*
After an hour or two,we went Orchard.I like the Isetan there,forgot which though.
The Japanese Supermarket was awesome.As in,food and stuff.They even got Ramune there.Nice,ya?We then head to Taka after that.
Ah,so,soon after,we went to Marina Square by bus.We went straight to Yuki yaki for reservations.Guess what?It's fully booked =_-
Ok,after a while more,we went there.Ok,this time,we can enter.So,we have lots of fun there.Ate alot and played with the 'ice-cream maker'.
Then we went home late.Ahahahaz.
THE END?

Ah,then,my new year day wasn't much of an interesting day should be.It consist of me,staying at home,sleeping in the noon and waking up to a terrible headache.Kinda' stupid huh?
Haiz....

And guess i've gotta' go prepare lunch for my sis and self.So,i'll see you guy around.
Cheers~