I'm tired.

Ah, evening guys.

Err, such a cooling evening.

Good night to sleep in and not wake up =)

Ah, went to hospital with mom to check-up.

And then, we went to Chinatown for lunch.

And desserts.

Lovely~ =D

It feels so nice.

To take a break from school.

Especially after the holidays, i kinda dread school.

Perhaps it's due to the lingering after-holiday effect.

But i'm so tired to see people being so competitive.

Tired to see people looking down on another, just because they think they are superior than others.

I'm sick and tired of seeing this.

But i guess, this is life, as they say.

Why can't people just have fun?

Why can't people just enjoy the days in the fun way?

Is grades that important?

Is being in the merits so important?

Maybe i'm just the oddball here.

Maybe i don't see the worth of it, while everyone does.

Maybe i really am a weird ball. But i don't want to see everyone to be unhappy just because of such things you can never bring to the grave with you.

To let it spoil the harmony of everyone.

Then again, it might be just me being overly sensitive again.

But Mom did talk some sense to me.

Which i think it's pretty true.

Sometimes, people around me view me as a clown, of my efforts to make them smile or laugh.

And most of the time, they'd most probably take me as a joke.

Sometimes, i couldn't help but to feel so too.

I must really change my personality.

Otherwise, i will only get stuck in this endless loop, everywhere i go.

I really have to see who i should let myself be myself, and not just to any Tom, Dick and Harry i see.

I should really change.