And i don't think i will stop this, not until the end of this semester.
I am aware i must've sounded like an early teenager venting his frustrations on his blog, lamenting and ranting and all.
But hey, sometimes, it just gets on my nerves.
And i guess it's just a way to vent those feelings.
I just can't stand them, those condescending people.
Come on, mocking people who is trying hard doesn't make you smart, or look cool.
It just makes you a jerk or a bitch.
And i don't get it.
What's the point of acting cool and bragging about your grade?
That doesn't make you cool, that makes you a nerd, which you are now.
Come on, let's face it.
Your grades don't make you cool. It's your personality.
And if you personality is so fucked-up, how can you be cool?
People won't described you as cool, they will describe you as fucked-up, as you are now.
And yet another one, who brags about grades too.
And woa? You brag about practically every little achievements you make.
Well, i envy you for that. For making a mountain out of a mole hill.
I clap my hands for you.
There's more i'd like to say.
But it's getting late.
Kinda tired to do so.
Haha~
But i must admit that i've somewhat changed into a harder person of some sort.
I realised that i can't always be a nice guy.
Nice guys don't finish last, nice guys dies first, from being used in this fucked-up world.
I'm getting more and more angsty these days.
And i don't think this feeling will go away... Not until i finished my term in here.
Now i get why people change, especially nice people who ended up as bad guys.
It's the environment.
Like the Chinese says, "You're dyed red when you're close to vermilion and you're dyed black when you're close to ink".
To think i'll end up like scums like them too. Hahaha~
I laugh at myself too.
I really hope i can break away from this soon.
Before i change into someone i hate myself to be.
Or even change into 'that person'.
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