It's about 1 plus.I should sleep,yet i can't....

Hey guys....
It's me here,in hikkikomori mode.
Hahaha~

I can't sleep.
I can't fall asleep.
I'm thinking about alot of things.
Alot of things i shouldn't be thinking about.
Yes,i am tired,but i just can't sleep.

There's alot of things.
I want to say here.But don't dare.
It's too deep inside me.
But it pains me not to.
Yet,i can't.Not here.

I feel somewhat sad.No,that's not the word.
Lonely,perhaps? In a dilema,perhaps? Cold,perhaps?
Cold,as in,it's really cold now,the weather.But it's good for sleep.

Bah,somehow,some thoughts,just stayed in my head for days and days.
It's agonising me.
Somehow.
I'm really troubled.This time....

How?

A short post....Gosh,i'm sick~ (0A0)

Hey guys~
Mmmm...I've fall ill =/
It seems like a heaty flu. (Is it the way to describe it?)
Hahaha~
Bah... I hate being sick.
I can't enjoy the stuff i like...Food especially.

But yet,i can't sleep now.
I can't fall asleep.
Feeling so uncomfortable.
And i can't fall asleep,'cause i think i'm thinking about alot of stuff.
Too much stuff.

I'm reading a manga too.
But i ain't gonna tell you the name.
Hahaha~
Well,you wouldn't wanna know too,actually...Right?
Hahaha~
But safe to say,it's a shoujo manga.
Never fail to make me go 'awwwwwww~'
Shoujo manga always have this fuzzy factor.
Don't you agree?

Ok guys,back to my manga reading.
Nite~

I cooked Fried Rice yesterday.Haha~

Hey guys.
Haha~
Ah,i wanna blog about something i did yesterday.
Well,i did wanna post about it last night.
But i was told to off the computer before i could blog about it.

Ah,i prepared Fried Rice yesterday.
I know it's not much of an accomplishment,but yea,it's pretty much of a big step.

I perpared mixed vegetables, egg mixture, and karaage (Yes,that was an extra,somehow =D)
For the egg mixture,i've added
- 2 eggs
- 2 teaspoon of light soy sauce
- small amount of sesame oil
And i kinda whisked it with a fork till it's well-mixed.

Anyways,i have also prepared rice of course.
The left over rice since the night before.
So yes,i mixed it into a hot wok of oil. (Well,not too much,just a little)
Then i added in the mixture, mixed vegetables and the karaage.
After a while,i've added in some thai fish sauce.

After all the cooking,this is the result
Doesn't appetising eh?
But well,i think it taste edible.Hahaha~
Well,even Granny,who is pretty much of a pick eater,says it's good.
So i shan't doubt myself eh?
But,i'll try it again.Making sure it's not a fluke.
Haha~

OK guys,actually,i have not yet brush my teeth nor taken my morning bath.
Haha~
Off to do it.Feeling pretty uneasy.Haha~ =S
Oh yes,i think i caught the flu bug =/

The post where i talk about NatsuMatsuri

Hey guys~
After for so long,i'm back~
Well,for a while.Hahahaa~
For these while,i'm actually enjoying life to its fullest...
Well,sorta~

Actually,i was gaming.
I was playing maple.
Hahaha~
Reliving the nostalgia of playing maple.So ya,back to mapling.
And the more i play,the more i think that i am a hikkikomori.
I'm not going out of the house unless for work or school.
Well,or some groccery shopping.
Well,this is good,i'm not spending more than what i should.Haha~

Ah,and last week,we went to Natsu Matsuri, or Summer Festival at Japanese Primary School Changi Campus.
I must say,it's a blast.Totally~
Well,except for some minor hiccups,everything was cool =)

We went to the Festival by school bus. (Well,since i'm performing there for the storytelling/play)
We went to school early to practice. And also,we learnt how to dance bon odori.
Well,a few songs...And suprisingly,there's songs like Chan Mali Chan. Cute yes?

Reaching the campus... Well,we were 'greeted' by crowds.
Well,it was crowded everywhere,everyone was queue-ing.
See? Isn't it crowded?
I was so relieved we had 'booked' tickets prior to the event.
Thus,we can enter at ease.
Tadaa~ The ticket~♪ XD

Entering the event space,it's more crowds.
It's seriously crowded... Though the crowd wasn't what i had expected.
Supposedly,i thought it was crowded with Japanese,local or otherwise.
But instead,it was crowded with locals,well,and a minority of Japanese.
But aww well,at least there is.
Hahha~

But i must say,Japanese are very very shy,from what i have observed from the event.
I have spoken to a few (well,i was passing out the brochures)
And yea,they're very reserved.Well,perhaps too reserved.

Ah,and while 'patrolling' around,i saw this
Traditional tea sets and pottery~
Nice,don't you think?
Man... But it's expensive.
The event showcased a big number of awesome stuffs...
And tagged with 'awesome' prices T^T
So people like me,who is full at heart and empty at the pocket,were pretty disheartened by it.

So as night came,the festival hits somewhat of a higher note.
With a stage at the middle of the field,there was performances,and there were crowds gathering at sides.
Well,but our performance wasn't on the stage.Haha~
Aww well,it'd be too scary actually.Hahaha~

And without saying,the highlight of it was the Bon Odori.
Hahaha~
It's great,the atmosphere and all.
I didn't join it though.I'm pretty bad at it.
Besides,i'd only learnt it earlier that day.Haha~
But trust me,if i were to have a chance next year,i'd most probably join in the dance.
It seems so fun,everyone was enjoying it.
Haha~

And also,there were games....
And the prizes were pretty cool.Well,that's the lure of the games.
Hahah~
Sis played,i didn't.
I had to prepare for the storytelling/play.
So yes.

And we met up with Uncle Alex and his family.
Ah,Tessa and Hannah are growing up to become fine ladies.
Hahaha~
They are so cute.
And the last time i saw them was two years ago.Haha~
And now they were...well,still small,but they are more grown up.
Haha~
But they are cute.
Should've took pictures of them.Haha~

Ah,but i must say,everything that day,was great.
You know what?
I should rent a yukata next year.Or perhaps,i should get one myself.
Hahaha~
It looks nice.
And Sis... She looks great in it.Hahaha~

Ah,gotta go back training my maple character...
And bath for Pierre =_=
So ya.
Adios~

Even the sweetest chocolate expires....

Hey guys.
Ah,had my practical test for Rooms Operation this morning.Hahaha~
Well,it's bad.Totally bad.
Sorry for the pessimism,but yea.
Hahaha~

I think i screwed up big time.
Totally.
Hahahaha~
But aww well,gotta' do my best for the written test two weeks later huh?
Hahahaha~

Ah,so thanks to Kiwi blog-hopping this morning in class,i was able to learn something new today.
It is a quote which i can't help but to agree with.

"When someone is sweet to you, don't expect that he/she will be like that
all the time because even the sweetest chocolate expires"

Don't you agree with it?
Hahahaha~

And after the depressing 'analysis' made by Kiwi and Chanel,i was kinda demoralise.
Um,it seems as if,i am not heading anywhere.
It's also as if,the only direction headed to is disappointment.
Maybe,deep down inside,i might agree with them.

I know all this...But i just want to wait for it.
Why? 'cause i believe.
Maybe it might be totally different from what they think it is.

I really want to wait for everything to be ok.
Only then,will i do what i planned to do.
For her (Doubt she'll know it's her),i think i'm willing to wait.
For her,I'm willing to be the sweetest chocolate that doesn't expire.

Ok,maybe i am being childish,holding on to the 'if i believe,everything will be okay' idea.
But,i really wish this will work.
I'm tired.I'm tired of being lonely.
Wishing someone to understand what i do and appreciate it.
It hurts sometimes,knowing no one will appreciate what you do.
It hurts being lonely.

Just another emo post.

Hey guys~
Ah,so how did you guys spend your National Day this noon?
Hope it went well.
Hahaha~

And me?
No no, i didn't go to watch the fireworks like i thought i would.
In short,i didn't enjoy it like how i planned it to be.
Such a disappointment =(

As you can see,i love fireworks very much.
The feeling you get.... is totally breath-taking.
You get what i mean?
I know you guys have experienced it before.
But it's from my point of view.
You get me?

Ah~
There's alot of things which makes me ponder,makes me feel troubled somehow.
Just alot of 'if' and 'why?'.
You get what i mean? You never know what will happen,you never know why it happen.
Maybe i'm just worrying things out of nothing.
But,it just kept me thinking.

And not just this,the things i do these days... I makes me feel
'Why am i doing this? Am i doing what i want?'
Now,you must be thinking 'So what are the things?' right?
Well,the life that i have been leading so far.
No,not that i have not enjoyed it.But rather,it didn't seemed as planned as what i like it to be.
The things that i do,the things that is happening around me,doesn't seem to come in sync with what i initially thought it'd be,or be at least what i can get used to.
Things just happened.
Pretty much of a 'whether you like it or not'.

And also,i do or say things when i don't even mean it.
And only to regret it after what i have done.
Come to think of it,i'm not as good as what people thought i am.
'cause i think i am rash,and somehow reckless like other guys is.

No,seriously....
I think,i'm not living my life like what i thought i would like.
Really,i just wanna live my life simple.
Live my life happy,live my life enjoyable.
Do things i wanna do,make people all around me smile,happy and all.
But my reckless and rashness,usually result otherwise.

Ah...
I have to go now,guys.
Good night.

It's a Wednesday,Thursday then Friday... No,there's no Wednesday XD

Hey guys~
I'm so sorry i kinda went MIA for these few days.
Terribly sorry.
Was so tired.
Dead fatigue i'd say.
Sleeping early these days as well.
I guess i'm sleeping early too.Hahahaha~

Ah,but for the past days,it's great.
Totally great.
Hahahah~
Alot of things has happened.
Guess it's 'cause it's the last second week of school.
Hahaha~

So you see,we had our last practical class for Kitchen Practicum.
So we prepared buffet.
And somehow,it was one of the most relaxed lessons for the module.
Hahaha~
I went in and out of the kitchen freely,since there's nothing much to do~ ^_^"
So i was hanging out at the bartender's section.
And they were trying out the cappucino.
I took a sip.There was no taste to it,and pretty bitter due to the cocoa.
Hahaha~
And guess what? It wasn't cappucino to be served,it's just for demo purpose =_=

Hahaha~
But seriously,i was somehow bored before the start of operations.
So i went around taking pictures.
Hahahaha~ Guess what's in the pot?
It's butter reduction.Hahahaha~ Pretty buttery in smell.Hahaha~

And for the long awaited buffet chef's table~
There was alot of food served~
There's tiramisu (Yes,a big bowl of Tiramisu.My love..... XD )
And it was gone before my second serving =_=

Hahaha~ And on the main course/side dish/starters side,there's pretty much awesome food as well.
There's mussels, fried rice, pastas and many more.
Isn't it awesome?

hahahaha~
Let's take a look at the table in sections.

Starter/main course/side dish

Desserts

Hahahaha~
Lovin' it? XDD

For today?
We had a blast tooo.
It's our last Microeconomics lesson.
It's kinda sad... Since the facilitator for this module is one of my favourite facilitators.
Ah....
It was nice of her to treat us pizza~

Nothing appeals a glutton more than pizza,right? Or is there.....
hahahaha~
Aww well~
But it's kinda sad somehow.
Ah.....

After school...... We went to practice for the test that's coming up on next Tuesday.
I'm not prepared yet i guess.
I'm not good enough.
But while waiting for my turn,i was just slacking around,goofing around.

Hahaha~
It's fun,to see Chanel being high with a camera,and taking alot of pictures.
It's really fun.
You can say,out of the whole class this semester,they are my best friends in this class.Hahaha~

Oh yes,i got my iPhone ^_^
Well,but i'm still hesistating.
Whether should i use it now as a phone?
'Cause i'm pretty comfortable with the phone i'm using now.Hahaha~

Ah....
I'm so tired.
Physically and mentally....
Though i seem so happy and filled with eventful stuff,
i feel somehow lonely somehow.
As if something is missing.
If only... i can find that 'something'.

Ah....
Gotta go sleep.
Guess tomorrow's another long day huh?
Haha~

Yahooo~ A new change at last =)

Hey guys~
As you can see,i've changed the skin of this blog.
So tired of older post being obscured.
I mean,they're good,but being obscured by newer ones.
You get what i mean?
Anyways,how you guys like this skin? Good? =)

Ah,for today,it's pretty much eventful i guess.
Took alot of pictures.Hahaha~

This morning in the market,i saw this
Little parrots.Hahahaha~
They're all so cute.Definitely adorable =)
Their owner brought them here as a mode of telling fortune.
There's quite a number of people.
Well,guess it's the novelty which draws the crowd.Haha~

Ah,i have also tried the candy Mom got yesterday.
I think she got it from some korean shop or fair.
It's awwfully nice XDD (If that's a way to describe how nice is a candy XDD )
The taste of the peach candy reminds me so much of a beverage i had when i was young.
Was it Pink Dolphin? I can't remember.
Hahaha~
As for the strawberry flavoured candy,it was rather common.
It taste like common strawberry flavour.
But nonetheless,i still prefer it over the peach one.
Hahaha~

And on my way back,guess what i saw?
Hahaha~
Man... Seriously,kudos to the guy who did this.
It's epic awesomeness with hint of epic funny-ness.
Hahaha~

Ah,and the sky was pretty great this noon too ^_^

Headed to Ray's place after school.
Tried his mixdeck.
One word. AWESOME.
Hahaha~I mean it looks so cool.
Don't you agree?
Although it made me feel like a fish out of water,i feel so much fun playing it.
Well,i get this feeling all the time when i play with a mixdeck =D

Ray also teached Sis how to beatmatch and basics of pitching.
And Sis is getting the hang of it.
Pretty fast of her to get that.So proud of her.
Hahaha~
Anyways,it's great,we're one step nearer to our goal... For Sis and me.
Hahaha~

Yes yes,and also,i tried this last night.
It's a leave-on mask from Laneige.
It's pretty good i think.
My face feels so cool when applying it on my face.Hahaha~
You guys should try it too sometime.
Hahahaha~

Ok guys,back to doing my RJ.
Or else i won't be able to complete it in time >.<
Nite~

Hey guys~
Ah~
Didn't post anything yesterday 'cause i was so tired.
Imagine,having to reach home at 11 after a long day of work.
Hahaha~
Ok,perhaps i'm complaining too much >.< Izwan told me about it some time ago.
But yeaa,this is the real deal.Hahaha~
Cool isn't it?
Hahahaha~ XDD

And on my way to buy dinner,guess what i saw?
Yes~ Moon cakes.
So now you have to wonder.
Why is there mooncake when the 7th month isn't here yet?
Hahahaha~ Man....
But awww well...
AWWW WEEEEE~ THERE'S MOONCAKES AVAILABLE !!!
And it seems pretty yummy ^_^
Hahahaha~
It's by Bakerzin by the way. (Wonder if i got the name correctly)

Hahahaha~
And for today? I got myself this.
Finally,after a year.
Man.... The mangaka is really taking his time huh?
But it's good,so worth the wait.
Man.... Watching Shiki and Arcuied so loving,i feel so 'doki doki'.
It just makes you feel like saying "Awwww,so sweeet~" with that fuzzy feeling.
Seriously... Maybe i'm just being too exaggerated.But....
Hahahaha~
Anyways,it seems like it's gonna end =/
It's my most favourite title out of all my collections.
Well,with Rozen Maiden in the second place.Hahaha~

Man....
Come to think of it,i'm in financial deepshit,again =_=
Having to owe money to Ray (Due the the club tickets) and having to pay for the chalet for EMP.
And also to feed the blackhole called my stomach.
It's so scary~~~
But aww well,this means i have to cut down on buying songs,eating cheaper foods and stop buying junk food X_X
Hahahaha~
Set~
Until i get my pay on September,not August's.Hahahah~
Hahaha~

And you know what?
There's been something that has been bugging me.
Am i being a good grandson and a good brother?
I mean,i acted so hostile to my grandmother.
Ok,before you guys start to judge me on that,i must say that,i'm just letting out what i feel.
Not for you guys to judge.
Ok,anyways.
I was saying that,sometimes,she accuses Sis of some stuff which she didn't do and make a big hooha over it.
I hated that.And i don't like her on that.
I mean,how could you question the integrity of anyone in this house? Where is the trust we have as a family?
With that in mind,it kinda cause me to feel hostile somehow.
But how i wish,we could go back to the old days,where we were so happy.
When things are so simple,where we would have Roti Prata for breakfast on every sunday morning.
I want to return to that time.

And now you ask,what has it gotta do with being a good brother,right?
Now this is the thing.
It seems that Sis is feeling irritated by me or something.
Perhaps i might be too sensitive or anything,but that's how i feel.
It seems like the duration of our conversation is getting lesser and lesser.
Mmmmm.
Is this part of growing up as well?
Somehow,it just makes me sad in a way.
'cause it feels as if we weren't that close anymore.
It pains me to think that way =/

Hope things will go well,return to normal,everyone being happy.
How i wish everything could be like the past...
So simple....